我希望 我的未来一半 是有志气目标远大的男人 有时间和金钱观念 有领导能力 他成熟 他不宠我 他不必很帅 彼此能够互补 而最重要的条件是懂得体谅 在我最需要时给我一个肩膀依靠   我不急着要   现在喜欢的 不一定是未来喜欢的那个 因为将来面对社会的现实 一个人容易改变理念以及生活目标 而两个人需要有相同的理念和观点才能维持长久的感情  专心读书 这才是我现在该做的本份 为了自己的将来 为了报答爸爸妈妈 对我的疼爱以及辛苦赚钱养家  没有他们哪来今天的我 没有他们鼓励支持哪来今天的我

how to define MEANINGFUL

Today I attended youth alive conference.I know that every time I attend AIESEC activities, I force myself to step out of my comfort zone. What I gained and learnt the most was from session You rule your Kingdom .There was a  facilitator,Vincent, he said that before that his life was bored-everyday woke up , attended lectures, after that doing assignments, having test, everyday continue such routines.  One day, he realized he only thought of himself. He asked himself did he done any impact to society by doing assignments or going to lectures? After joining AIESEC , he realized as a youth , he can also contribute to society. He was concerned about the poverty, so as an engineer, he built a system which produces high quantity of mushroom and then sold to others to gain profit and donated  to the poor .He has successfully done it in smaller scale , and this will also be his FYP . In future, he plan to bring his project into markets and continue for the donation kind acts. Yes, this is his action . Everyone can make a change to society with only small action because this will produce ripple effect. Another session which inspired me a lot is sharing session from the ex exchange students. I like the story from Jaya. She went exchange programme in China for education project. This project was to teach audism children. She shared that she was a person who like to stay at comfort zone. This exchange program me really is the best way to force herself out of comfort zone. Although there were hardships in teaching such children but at the end she felt really meaningful. Yeap, MEANINGFUL.  I got new understanding towards this word through her sharing. Through exchange program me she gained a lot of experiences and also  have  interesting and meaningful stories to share with others instead of just the topics about the schools -achievement in exam results etc.  We can only live a meaningful life by empowering others. Yeah, everyday wake up I suppose to ask myself what can I do today to  bring impact to society instead of thinking of going to lectures... Yeah, I think before that I am too focus on myself until neglecting issues that happened around me.   Its time to step out of comfort zone. I hope this motivation will continue within me.   This is my biggest learning of today.

这个星期将会是非常忙碌的一个星期  虽然很累 总是难入睡   总觉得自己以后会患上很多疾病 这样不健康的生活 及时能调节回去
还有想想已经 好久没有读novel了 好想看啊 尤其是睡不着时 特别想看
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是时候放下你 收起对你的喜欢 单方面喜欢是折磨的

我想逃避你
我不想面对你 因为觉得自己当初笨到说出了不该说的话 不该怎样面对你 甚至对你产生厌恶

在悬崖边缘的日子

以前，我的梦想是成为一名工程师， 我多么相信自己是可以的，相信 这世界没有极限，可是事实并不是如此， 一个月多了， 遇到目前人生中最大的挫败感， 我不会engineering drawing, 我无法看图想象， 看着朋友都会画， 他们的眼神充满信心画着， 而看着他们的我觉得自己出问题了， 那种压力感让我哭了， 只是我压抑住，不让其他人看到。我的脑袋无法专注， 我不懂该从哪里开始画， 我放空了。 我想很多， 我会不会这次考试不及格，我会不会不能读完mechanical engineering，我会不会有一天崩溃到想放弃。 我的心充满害怕。十分害怕。很害怕。很多次我自己晚上偷偷在哭 。我现在很需要一个地方让我放声大哭。可是大学十分小， 到任何地方都会被人看到。我压抑很久了。我真的需要一个可以让我哭的地方。 我累了。十分累。当初的志气已经没了。 还有我想回家。我想爸爸妈妈。每当我压力时 我都会在他们面前尽情哭。爸爸妈妈， 我真的很想你们。还有我的知己vero

你是我最想留住的小幸运

我不确定到底真的喜欢你吗 只是每次在我感到迷茫的时候 看到你让我觉得很有安全感 每次在人群中 我的眼神在寻找你 没有看到你的存在 会让我小小的失望 我也喜欢与你一起谈天 也许我已经喜欢你了 我们许多活动都会一起去 让我习惯有你的陪伴 无论你认真的时候 还是在班上睡觉 我都觉得很帅 哈哈  可是 我很害怕 我可以喜欢你吗  我该停止喜欢你吗  我害怕 害怕自己越陷越深 然后最后看到你喜欢的是别人  我怕自己受伤 我可以把心投注在你吗 我很迷惑 我祈祷你会是我上帝安排的另一半  遇见你也许是上帝的安排