浩瀚的世界 渺小的自己

今天很伤心 害 往事不堪回首 可是还是想发泄下 第一天上IELTS 老师给我们做listening练习 我好不习惯speaker的读音  讲好快 有一篇不懂整篇在讲什么  老师叫我们念出自己的分数时 真的是很自卑 40题里面才对10题  我就像跌到谷底

多亏今天我才发现自己是多么多么的不足
谢谢老师的一句话 没关系 继续努力 要跟自己比较 而不要跟别人比较

浩瀚的知识书海里  虽然好好认真读了20年的书  总觉得所学的知识分量只不过是全部知识的1巴仙   知识真的很强大 无法衡量  我们可以做的就是永远饥渴寻求知识

生活中 有些人事物 你害怕去面对 也许是阴影 想到必须面对那件事 你就会心情难免失落 夜间难眠

我希望明天在面对时 能把最好的自己表现出来 即使觉得自己无法再坚强了 也要笑着脸  谁知事情的发生也许不是我想象的那样呢

我想要自己再多坚强一点点就好了 不奢求  在别人面前要坚强 你脆弱只是让那些希望你失败的人同情笑你批评你 不是人们的错 是the fault in our stars 。

父母无私的爱

“听妈妈的话,别让他受伤 想快快长大 才能保护她” 我最喜欢听这首动人的歌 喜欢歌词

       在我小时后我有时会闹脾气 或哭 爸爸总是跟妈妈说不可以宠我 如果我继续哭 他就会拿出藤条打
       慢慢长大一点  常抱怨为什么爸爸妈妈如此苛刻  想出去玩时就有点反对 想买喜欢的东西时说不要浪费钱买没有必要的东西 看到别人家的孩子和亲戚 他们要什么就得到什么 他们有许多玩具和美丽的衣服 先进的电话电脑 生日时可以开个bbq 或者party之类的  那都是我以前所羡慕的
      更可恶的自己是抱怨父母为什么不能像别的父母那样有钱有地位有势力
      父母常提醒我读书时期不可以谈恋爱 我不明白为什就不可以呢 不一定恋爱都是不好的啊

       我总觉得很不快乐

      就在我18岁 我经历了一场失恋 那个痛是无法形容的 甚至曾经想过 如果我死 他会理我吗  那段日子只要一想到这段感情 半夜就在房间哭 安静的夜晚 寂寞的夜晚 是那刻可以给我的最好安慰

       我深深领悟到  然后非常珍惜父母的那个无私的爱 无论发生什么事 他们永不撇下自己的孩子

       进入社会做工 一切从零开始  被严重批评的日子 对人情感到失望的日子  让我重新震做起来的是父母还有pps 的一群也算是家人的朋友

     如今   我感谢父母的缺乏 提醒我必须努力去弥补家庭的不足  我想亲手创造自己的未来 改变自己开始 改变生活水平 改变未来

孤单定义

外表看似孤独 但心里却不是真正的孤独 与其让自己看似不孤单 而与一些伤害你的人一起 倒不如自己一个人 享受一个人的生活 吃喜欢吃的食物 想透透气就自己去走走 看故事书进入充满浪漫 想像 幽默的书海里  疲惫时有上帝的安慰 开心或伤心时有一位朋友愿意聆听  父母无私的爱  兄弟姐妹的支持  做工让自己充实  一天的结束后有个温暖的床给我睡  没有男友但却有知己  这样的我还是孤独吗 呵呵  

My future

After getting my STPM result,  i started to get busy. That moment was decision making time because i needed to decide that which  course and university to study. 

Today , i saw a quote from Steve Job-Remember to do something that you love. The only way to do great work is to love what you do.If you havent found it yet,keep looking, dont settle. Yes, i realised that if we love to do somethings, we will do more beyond our responsibilities. We might not feel tired. Ironically, we might fear ,miserable ,feel like working in the hell, not motivated in doing somethings that we really not interested. 

Thanks God, i know what i want to be.

Now, my biggest hope is to get scolarship to study engineering in overseas. A reminder to myself-never give up 

Unpredictable

Unpredictable

         There are things in the world that are unpredictable. Sure, many of us have ever think to have a power of prediction. This is because we can predict whether we are rich in the future. We can also predict whether a relationship can be lasted forever. However, i cannot imagine how dull the world would be if we can predict something. If the results of our prediction are good, we will become lazy and ego. We think that no hard works are needed to get a better future.  Oppositely, we may loss hope if the results are bad. We think that our destiny cannot be changed anymore.

       Love is unpredictable. There is a girl, an ordinary 18-year-old and plain-looking girl who is a new student in Seal College. Today is going to be her first day in this new school. She is quite nervous because she comes to a new environment with no one recognize her. After taking her breakfast, she departs from her home which only takes her for a few minutes.

      She pulls her car in the car park near the school gate. It is still early when she arrives. There are 30 minutes before the first period starts. So, she decides to walk around the school compound. She sees some students chatting with friends near the corridor outside their classes, Some hardworking students are doing revision in the class. There are even some boys and girls have a date with their partner in the class.  No one realizes her presence. She feels that she is invisible to someone. Her heart fills up with loneliness.

      The sky is dark and rain starts to pour down heavily. She stops and looks up the sky. Although she is lonely but she likes to be alone. She thinks that relationships make life miserable and terrible. She was once hurt deeply by a guy.She loved him so much, too much , more than she loved herself. Her heart bled at every silent night. Missing him made her felt guilty. Crying was the only way to relieve her pain. Since then, she becomes cold. She does not believe anyone anymore. She thinks that there is no love other than parents' love for her.

      Until today, something changes her. As she enters the class, she is assigned by her teacher to sit beside a guy .She walks towards her desk and sits down. The guy greets her with a warm smile. She smiles back. For the first time since her heart being frozen , she smiles so naturally. Her heart starts to melt.

        " Hello , my name is Ben Muller. Call me Ben. Nice to meet you", the guy says.
       
        She then introduces herself to Ben. Then, Maths lesson starts. She could feels that Ben keeps on looking at her. She feels uncomfortable but happy as finally there is someone knows her.She cannot focus to the lesson. Then, she turns her head slightly towards Ben. Their eye meet with each other. Now she is sure that Ben looks at her. Her heart pounds so quickly. His smile make her breathless. Her mind becomes empty.

        Time flies. After a month, they can talk everything from their hobby to their family. They  become inseparable. They have strong feelings towards each other. One day, after the school, Ben asks her to stay in the class. He says  that he has prepared lunch for her. He takes  out a container from his bag.

        " I have put all my courage inside, hope that after you open it, you are happy to see it," Ben says and passes the container to her.

       She feels weird that the container is extremely light. She then opens it with curious. She sees a piece of folded color paper . She opens it and reads.

        Since the first sight i see you, i think  that i fall in love with you. After i knew more about you, i am sure that you are the girl i like. I do not want to promise you that i love you forever. I know that only actions and time can prove that. Can you open your heart for the last time for me?  I believe i can heal your heart which has once being broken. Just believe me. I love you. Can you be my girlfriend?

          Tears rolls down to her cheeks,

         " Yes, i love you too", she says .

         Indeed, love is unpredictable. It happens at anywhere and at anytime.It starts with only a smile or greets.

       
     

     

小朋友

教四年级的小朋友两个星期了， 感触深。。。他们虽然成绩不是很好，常常练习错误很多，偶尔让我火气来，但是从他们的天真看到他们的快乐。。。偶尔说出来的话让我忍不住笑了出来   。。。  一群 可爱的孩子~ 哈哈~