孤单定义

外表看似孤独 但心里却不是真正的孤独 与其让自己看似不孤单 而与一些伤害你的人一起 倒不如自己一个人 享受一个人的生活 吃喜欢吃的食物 想透透气就自己去走走 看故事书进入充满浪漫 想像 幽默的书海里  疲惫时有上帝的安慰 开心或伤心时有一位朋友愿意聆听  父母无私的爱  兄弟姐妹的支持  做工让自己充实  一天的结束后有个温暖的床给我睡  没有男友但却有知己  这样的我还是孤独吗 呵呵  

My future

After getting my STPM result,  i started to get busy. That moment was decision making time because i needed to decide that which  course and university to study. 

Today , i saw a quote from Steve Job-Remember to do something that you love. The only way to do great work is to love what you do.If you havent found it yet,keep looking, dont settle. Yes, i realised that if we love to do somethings, we will do more beyond our responsibilities. We might not feel tired. Ironically, we might fear ,miserable ,feel like working in the hell, not motivated in doing somethings that we really not interested. 

Thanks God, i know what i want to be.

Now, my biggest hope is to get scolarship to study engineering in overseas. A reminder to myself-never give up 

Unpredictable

Unpredictable

         There are things in the world that are unpredictable. Sure, many of us have ever think to have a power of prediction. This is because we can predict whether we are rich in the future. We can also predict whether a relationship can be lasted forever. However, i cannot imagine how dull the world would be if we can predict something. If the results of our prediction are good, we will become lazy and ego. We think that no hard works are needed to get a better future.  Oppositely, we may loss hope if the results are bad. We think that our destiny cannot be changed anymore.

       Love is unpredictable. There is a girl, an ordinary 18-year-old and plain-looking girl who is a new student in Seal College. Today is going to be her first day in this new school. She is quite nervous because she comes to a new environment with no one recognize her. After taking her breakfast, she departs from her home which only takes her for a few minutes.

      She pulls her car in the car park near the school gate. It is still early when she arrives. There are 30 minutes before the first period starts. So, she decides to walk around the school compound. She sees some students chatting with friends near the corridor outside their classes, Some hardworking students are doing revision in the class. There are even some boys and girls have a date with their partner in the class.  No one realizes her presence. She feels that she is invisible to someone. Her heart fills up with loneliness.

      The sky is dark and rain starts to pour down heavily. She stops and looks up the sky. Although she is lonely but she likes to be alone. She thinks that relationships make life miserable and terrible. She was once hurt deeply by a guy.She loved him so much, too much , more than she loved herself. Her heart bled at every silent night. Missing him made her felt guilty. Crying was the only way to relieve her pain. Since then, she becomes cold. She does not believe anyone anymore. She thinks that there is no love other than parents' love for her.

      Until today, something changes her. As she enters the class, she is assigned by her teacher to sit beside a guy .She walks towards her desk and sits down. The guy greets her with a warm smile. She smiles back. For the first time since her heart being frozen , she smiles so naturally. Her heart starts to melt.

        " Hello , my name is Ben Muller. Call me Ben. Nice to meet you", the guy says.
       
        She then introduces herself to Ben. Then, Maths lesson starts. She could feels that Ben keeps on looking at her. She feels uncomfortable but happy as finally there is someone knows her.She cannot focus to the lesson. Then, she turns her head slightly towards Ben. Their eye meet with each other. Now she is sure that Ben looks at her. Her heart pounds so quickly. His smile make her breathless. Her mind becomes empty.

        Time flies. After a month, they can talk everything from their hobby to their family. They  become inseparable. They have strong feelings towards each other. One day, after the school, Ben asks her to stay in the class. He says  that he has prepared lunch for her. He takes  out a container from his bag.

        " I have put all my courage inside, hope that after you open it, you are happy to see it," Ben says and passes the container to her.

       She feels weird that the container is extremely light. She then opens it with curious. She sees a piece of folded color paper . She opens it and reads.

        Since the first sight i see you, i think  that i fall in love with you. After i knew more about you, i am sure that you are the girl i like. I do not want to promise you that i love you forever. I know that only actions and time can prove that. Can you open your heart for the last time for me?  I believe i can heal your heart which has once being broken. Just believe me. I love you. Can you be my girlfriend?

          Tears rolls down to her cheeks,

         " Yes, i love you too", she says .

         Indeed, love is unpredictable. It happens at anywhere and at anytime.It starts with only a smile or greets.

       
     

     

小朋友

教四年级的小朋友两个星期了， 感触深。。。他们虽然成绩不是很好，常常练习错误很多，偶尔让我火气来，但是从他们的天真看到他们的快乐。。。偶尔说出来的话让我忍不住笑了出来   。。。  一群 可爱的孩子~ 哈哈~

脑海中浮现的问题 ，情绪

好久没写了， 啊，今夜失眠，
很常告诉自己， 人生是虚空的，无论 感情，功成名就都是虚空，让自己快乐才叫做意义。
梦想是我的推动力， 梦想是使你快乐满足，还有设么比梦想更伟大?
至于爱情 ， 经历的已经够了， 曾经我天真过，浪漫过，相信过承诺，幸福过，最后， 哭过，犯贱过，绝望过，好过，一时后，爆发过， 整夜哭过， 快要窒息过， 委屈求全过， 最后想爱自己，把对他的爱给自己，来爱值得我来爱的人，最后，  我放下 ， 活过来。 爱情的悲剧我经历了，这是我青春爱情的回忆。 有些戏剧结局是悲伤的， 可是看完后大多数人还是觉得赞， 而这也是我对爱情的感受。 就算以后无缘遇到真爱， 这辈子只不过安静了些，寂寞了些， 这样而已，哈哈。

小小领悟 26日11月

假期到了， 突然觉得人就是很奇怪， 读书期盼放假， 而真正的放假到了，却很像没有想象中的美好，因为呢， 要开始策划接下来该怎么做。。。。今天找到了工作，也就是忙碌的开始啦。。或许是好事， 至少不会发霉，对吧？ 呵呵。。。    加油！  结束了中学生涯并不是终点，而是人生的起点~我的梦想， 一直都没有忘记， 我会保护她。

有这么一个时候

有这么一个时候， 自己一个人时，会想很多事， 烦恼跟着来，情绪复杂跟着来，
在这个时候， 得告诉自己别想太多， 活在当下。。 心简单，烦恼少，世界大